19 and hasty

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I am going fucking crazy here. No one is going to read this most likely but if they happen to, kudos. I lack an extreme amount of patience and my brain is like on ritalin all by itself, like the fucking energizing bunny… it keeps going & going & going & going. You get the point right. So i dont believe in depression, i think of it as an excuse and i dont do excuses. I’m 19 yo. and i’ve already dealt my handful of bullshit and it was a lot. No more, time to move on to something new, so sarcasm iz biz the defense mechanism. But i was reading LA Weekly and there’s this ad about symptoms of depression and i seem to have all of them but in my case these are just chronic symptoms of boredom not depression. I need something  to occupy my time. Companionship or a hobby besides smoking the marij. So this rambling seems to be getting no where and this must to an end until next time……